23 isn't that old....

I realize that in about 3 and a half months I'll be 23. 23? Where did 21 and 22 go? I seriously feel 19 still. A few days ago I couldn't tell you why I feel this way but now, I kinda have a good idea. Nothing has really changed that much in the past 4 years in my life. I mean other peoples lives have changes around me Like Kellys and Drews. But mine? Its been the same for 4 years.. 4 years at Starbucks, same room. same un-motivation of school. same no good friends. Same looks. same house and same city. for 4 years its all been the same. So I start to think to my self what can I change to make me feel my age? What can I do? I get all these great ideas but then I'm reminded that I'm still makin a lousy 9 dollars an hour and my bills say I should be making about 17 an hour. Even more ironic? I could get a new job but I'm afraid to change jobs.... how pathetic. I guess theses things dont really make me who I am. Its just that I'm ready to make the next big step in my life and I'm ready to do it soon. So maybe a new job would be great, maybe I could actually get my bills in hand, I could even get a new place to live. I'm just waiting for the right time to do all these things and maybe these all could be my New years resolutions. I'm ready for the next big chapter. Watch out!